A prayer of faith

"Restore us, O Lord God Almighty; make your face shine upon us, that we may be saved." Psalm 80:19 (A psalm of Asaph)

Asaph cried out to his God. The people of God, Israel was in pain because they broke the promise of God. They couldn't see any light while God has been rebuked them. The darkness was filling that time. There is no one who seeks God.

But Asaph prayed with a faith. I imagined that they would felt like God has just been angried and they would scared God.

Even in dark period, Asaph believed that God's faithfullness. He trusted in the Lord's unfailing love. So he prayed for a salvation from heaven. God promised himself to Israel and he do not be waved at that people's treachery.

Hallelujah! I can do a prayer of faith. I have to do a prayer of faith anytime. This is why I always get God's answer. This is why I can pray in the peace and the sureness. I can see wonderful God through prayer even I can not see Him with my eyes.

God would be waiting for lsrael praying this prayer. Asaph's prayer was perfect prayer. Because he knew the heart of God. God will never give up his people, His inheritance. He can not give up His glory! Let's be strong in faith in Him!!

community of faith

I have been living in a community for three years. At first, I got shocked very much in 'our' life. It was very thankful for receiving me in the name of Jesus without any condition. I had to change all of my value system from that time. I was confused. I had to reset definitions of everything to just live with others. For a while, I had mistaked that what I must learn is a visible life style of this community.

God who guides me wanted to me know not some human's rules, but the Lord Jesus Himself. The life of faith is not limited by a unique, easy-discrible life style. It is not a action. It is not a shape. Things revealed is not made by something visible. The Lord knows my thoughts. He knows my faith in my mind. He knows how I devout whole I am and I explain a faith in Him. He changed me on the cross. He revived me to I am who just He created on the cross. It is not can be sure through a temporary evidence.

God wants to me trust in Him who in every families in Christ. He is living spirit so He let me know him through relationship. Once I did not understand why we should have faith life in a community. I had emphasized this thought to another people, but I did not know the reason really. Having relationship, we are happy, sad, excited, angry, warm, exhused, dispressed and anguished. During we have many relationships, we look for how to obey Jesus in our life. We get worring leads to salvation and leaves no regret. We realize what is denying myself and living in Him. We guess how Father, Holy Spirit, Son loved us. First all things, it give us Father's heart. Whoever has Father's heart can live Jesus' life. Jesus' every life will be revealed to world through our life, unfailing love, unconditional unity.

God let me know him more and more. He protects me from real danger. He leads me to have a true faith in His sight. It is not easy to live with various people, but I saticefy. Satan gave me a desire to shut my mind to other person with some worthy reason at once, today. I could not make up my mind immediatly, but I rejoice in trusting God at even such a circumstance. God dwells in each of us. He holds all of us with his marvelous power. We are all children of God. All of us are the pure bride of Him. I appreciate to God wholeheartedly. There is no more success or failure in the victorious Christ.

Father, I will be honest in presence of You. Continue to help me. Your will be done in my life. Your work will be accomplish in us. Yes, You are Almighty God. I will stand before You every moment. I don't give up to trust and wait. My enemies, satan and his folloers will be perished. They will be destroyed. His head had broken already by your death, Jesus. You are alone God of true power!

Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.
See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done.
At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter.
So even though I wrote to you, it was not on account of the one who did the wrong or of the injured party, but rather that before God you could see for yourselves how devoted to us you are.
(1Corinthians 7:10-12)

Your love endures forever

I have not visited my little sister's mini homepage for a while. I had visited her mini homepage before dinner yesterday. (In Korea, people almost has this in 'cyworld' web site. It is called 'minihompee'. The user of this minihompee can explain oneself through photos, pictures, articles, media...etc. Once I had it, but after Jesus became my good news, I deleted it because this homepage made me pursue my own glory.)

There were my sister's photos. She is student of art college. Her major is graphic design. She looked very busy with many assignments her professor gave. I have known that she has drowing hard to be the best designer. It is not easy to be No. 1 of a field in the world. I remained a message in her mini hompee. I said her she would very tired. I said we have to toil painfully in this world to gain something but God loves her because just her being.

'Loving without reason'... The Lord loved me like this. Can I follow His love?
I have doing this love by now by His power. I can say that this is possible by faith in Him. I do not say "I can't." for Jesus's commandment to us to love. I hope my sister to know this love of God. I hope her loves her Lord more than her life. I hope I also live as witness of this love of God.

Starting to study grammar...

I am very glad to start grammar. It will be very busy to memorize large amount everyday, but the delight to know something may very big. When I was in middle school, high school and university in Korea, I had used a lot of grammars but I have many things which I know almostly but not clearly. I thought that I know it but it was not mine really. I hope to learn grammars exactly through this opportunity.

I am uneasy a little bit about studying phonics on Monday only because I need to practice phonics daily. I have to practice myself from now but having been more relaxed, I thought I should make something I have learn harder. It is exciting. Steps to new field make me to be afraid sometimes but make me to look foward God's good will and wonderful recovering. I have thought that I have been learning a lot of things but, I do not know very much yet. This is really precious time to me that available to know how tiny I am with many serving for us from families of GNCS, GCA.

God will have done everything!

God will do it!

"I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one"(John 17:22)

After I read this word from Judy's blog post, this word has been presented in my mind, because when God create all things, He gave us this glory. He created us to enjoy the glory of being one with Him and others. This glory is the greatest glory revived by the gospel of the cross.

I do not know why I have to had to spend so a lot of time for thinking about being one. I think because I feel not us to be one completely.

What is the definition of complete unity? I asked myself. Is it not an unfailing love between she(or he) and me? Why is it possible partly? Why can't I in this love with everyone? Because of something I look for in him/er, difference? do I not have Jesus's love? Because of my narrow mind, prejudice, bad memories?
I know, but are that all? Is there any more key reason, fundamental reason and true answers? Do I too sensitive?

There were too many questions in my mind. I had have to find a solution, unless I would be crazy. I hoped God tells me in our prayer meeting in Saturday evening. God who knows this, answerd me.

Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. ( John 4:23 )

Now is the time to worship in John 4:23! And He commands me to know that I am the true worshiper. Jesus knows my anguishing points and my history. He tells me to believe that everything I have went throuth was in His allowance like He lefted toward Galilee because He believed it to God's will.

He was guided by heavenly Father naturaly. Jesus was tired in Samaria, so he sat down by the well, so he met a Samaritan woman. It was God's leading. God wants all of my heart. He tells me that give my heart to Him through every events. He signs me through even bad event which I do not believe it to God's work.

Believe simply, and worship wherever you are. Be a most true worshiper. The reason of that I can worship God and exalt Him is He is holding any circumstances and do not fail.

I praise God for let me kneel before Him!
I will worship Him in spirit and truth so that He will do His work in me.

I praise love of my Lord

When I on wednesday evening service, I thought about heart of God with listening Joseph's sharing. "I am satisfied by just my Lord." God pleases this confess of us. Because He wants all of us, heart of us.

But my heart have saying, "Lord, I failed today, too." recently. I had some stress, anger and sadness in my heart from lacking my tougue's moving and uniting with my missionay family. I was sad to reject to hug others without reason, get shadow in my mind. I did not know it, but I was saying to Jesus, "I am sorry, my Lord, I failed to love, to be a witness and overcome every shadow. I am sorry, Father."

Jesus has let me know, suddenly, what is His heart like. He pleases me. He is satisfied with only my being. "I am satisfied by just you." But I could not live the life He commanded. Will He is joyful to see my disappointing appearance? Is He satisfied by me anguished? Lord guides me to realized that everytime I am overflowed with delight or strive to change my crushed mind soft, He receving my deepest heart.

I thanked God for His everlasting love and got freedom. I do not know how I solve every problems of my life. I do not know still how I can easily united with another person. I just praying to God. I believing we are on God's will. He has something want to do, to say among us and me. He is God who must accomplish His great works. His works do not be damaged.

I satisfied by His being,
in love of his satisfaction because of me.

Toward the Eternal Purpose

I want to say myself. "Move your eyes from yourself of today, look up the King majesty!" I have encouredged myself and others continually and I doing not stop to say hope but it is not a done too much.

If I think about God's glory, greatness, and wonderful plan be not know anybody, only He knows, I would can not be distressed by the results for today. I am not a life that live only a day. The Lord's plan is sure to complete. His vision is sure to realize. He is sure to succeed.

Power of God in the Calm

Pilate had a notice prepared and fastened to the cross. It read:sc JESUS OF NAZARETH, THE KING OF THE JEWS. Many of the Jews read this sign, for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city, and the sign was written in Aramaic, Latin and Greek. The chief priests of the Jews protested to Pilate, "Do not write 'The King of the Jews,' but that this man claimed to be king of the Jews." Pilate answered, "What I have written, I have written." (John 19:19-22)


God and things belong to Him are not same with everything in this world. I have misunderstanded sometimes the splender of God and being a servant of God to visible. It has to be looks strong, different, serious, overpowering and holy to me. I really did not know what is 'the standard' of them. If so, even Jesus on the cross is not saticefy my standard. He is the Son of God and the most good servant of God, but if I know Him by my own thinking, He can not be a Messiah. I have been sure of wrong, thought that 'holiness' is morality what I had learned.

Pilate and all of world scoffed of Jesus Christ. They called him Jesus of Nazareth. Yes, the Lord can not be understood by man's consideration, but He was declared as King of mankind in Aramaic, Latin and Greek on the shabby cross in man's sight. He just died on the cross, but God accomplished His words at that time. God has silent power. His kingdom makes whole world tremple by His unvisible power - everlasting love.

A Message A White Bird Gave To Me

I saw a white bird through window practicing phonics in Good News church. She was flying around the tree. ( I want to say it, 'she'. It is very pretty bird. ) She winged very busy when she stay on a point in the air. She spread her wings stretch when she move other points. It looked very natural that she controls her wings. If she want to stay in the air she has to swing her wings quickly and if she want to move another place, she should not to swing so fast but she do not have any difficulty of it. She pay more energy willingly to stay in the air.

If I control my tongue freely like that, I would speak English more clearly and fluency. I thought like this, but it need more cost. It is strange to use this word 'cost' but, I have to pay more effort for good pronounciation. I do not like to think it necessary sometimes, but I remind everytime I practice that my efforts are stocking now. Doing not let go hope is be a stream giving endless strength on my way following my Lord.

I desire be steadfast in presence of God

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. The LORD is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one. Save your people and bless your inheritance; be their shepherd and carry them forever. (Psalm 28:6-9)

Satan attacks saints everyday and every moment. Through any situations and one's weak surfaces. There was none who win upon Satan alone. Saints of God, even they are 'saints', can not overcome the attack of Satan. Why?

Our own ability is not strong as to repulse our enemies. We do not live longer, more clearly, so we have not our own ability but our Lord is our strength. But I forget it in a lot of times and am proud of myself. I have be attacked by even very small reason and happens. God want to meet me and capture me at that moments. People of God is strong and steadfast because the Lord is thire shield, fortress, horn of salvation, song of joy and shepherd. Yes, that is WHY that people of God can being in Him steadfast!

I want to do not move in His presence from a very small part of my life, always. I really welcome God's dealing with me and training for his sake. Praise the Lord for be my good pronounciations, love for others, smile and joy from everything he gave me, today!

Movie Feedback Slumdog millionaire

April 4, 2009 Saturday

I have been in India 2 times. But I didn't know the real slum of India. I have had a heavy, answerless image of India. The movie evidenced something what I have read and heard about India from books and news.

I had hurt in my heart and prayed for people of slum in India during I watching terrible scenes. There was not rest, peace and endless love. I felt very strange that I enjoying the movie with sweet snacks. There was a life that I have never gone through. I prayed for many lives which is threw on the dirty streets.

Jamal (the main acter in the movie) had a only one hope(though it was not truly good news). He did not give up to ge Latica (the actress). It was as human can not stop to find, know and love his endless father, shepherd, Lord, bridegroom, Savior and lover. Jamal did not afraid anything to get her. Jamal's heart was pour out to her absolutely.

Jamal was lifted up to a seat that most rich and popular. It reminded me that I rescued and brought from the most dirty, bad, miserable and lowly position to the glorious, wonderful, beatiful and precious position with Jesus.

It has a not good point, that is people who lived in grief dance in final scene. It said to me, "I am fine, I can live well if I have a lot of money!" without anguish that leads to truth. I think it cover eyes of the audience to can not see the good news and to think as it is nothing. Most of movies in India ends like that, but I think Jamal had great happiness as his unhappiness.

CONCLUSION
I praise God who gave us redemption can not be discribe by this story!

Good Cultural Shock

April 3, 2009 Friday

The culture of America is very different with Korean culture. I can discover this during understand speaking English.

The difference is refer to relationship especially. Korean are generally do not want someone unfamiliar. They do not know how have fellowship when they have meet first. They just talk with only their friends, and greet only 'see you later' to a new friend. They do not tell about themselves to others easily.

American are in other hand let me know his (or her) name immediatley as I introduce my name. They do not make silence during fellowship. All questions they ask are for to know each other. They are really frank, react immediatley even to stranger. They do not forget to help new people to join them.

There is only one kind of human in Korea. Korean are do not move frequently. Korean have a few chance to meet a new person, so I thing we, Korean can not make a friends with somebody well.

I think but American meet variouse people and experience variouse cases. I think they know that human is the image of God in their thinking unconsciously. I know that there are many parts has only trace of it, but it seems to there are a lot of things which I have to learn.

I like to have fellowship with foreigners. I want to know and take some polite habits. I want to share grace in me and them and encourage each other in faith in our Lord, Jesus.

When I lose my Hope, what can I do?

When I am afraid, I will trust in you. Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.

I request up to only God. I trust in only God. When my false foundation is fallen down (like a life, my own experience) is the time to rejoice. It is the time to cut any strength from myself, to bow down to Christ Jesus. This is a wonderful grace, His special mercy!

Jesus is a fortress, a tent of rest and the one who leads me and all of men to path of life. I lean on Him only, today. I will seek and focus on the Lord. Lord calls us into front of His cross everyday. Let us go to Him, to cross that the proof of Lord's endless love with perfect satisfaction and happiness.

Lord's grace

[ A blog post for yesterday(4/1) ]

When king David had going through trial, he wanted to hide from it. His foe was his lover, friend and close person, so he was pained, afraid as much as he loved him. David might has much grief, elucidations, and words he want to pour out, but he confessed with not regarding to deeds of his evil foes ; "I call to God, and the LORD saves me."

David didn't give up or forget to seek the Lord. He attantioned to only God constantly. It was a really heavy anguish. But David became a singer that singing the song of Lord's greatd grace more. He experienced God who is savior and have waiting for him. He looked forward to God and met Him even through suffering.
I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me. (Proverbs 8:17)

If whoever depend on the Lord, be in Him and is God's child, will experience His grace more and love Him more even though he face any trial. It is not possible through just having some troubles. If I stand by my own strength, patience and efforts, that experience will be my worldly wisdom. The suffering can't be a good alone, but only the suffering with our Lord is gain.

The strongest man is the one lives by grace of God.

I live by faith

There is no the most perfect world-view except Lord's truth. Truth is not gripped in my hands. It is not controllable. It is not a mathematical form that applicable to any case, any person. There is one real and perfect view, Christ Jesus's view.

I am a Korean. I have a world-view of Korean that including even several parts I can not realize myself sometimes. It is not truth, but I have saw through my own world-view in many cases. I recover often it is just a Korean style that I was believed as the most perfect life style of gospel.

I am a missionary for missionaries in whole world. I do not want to be bind to any unique world-view, to force someone to take it. Since I had a small view, so I could not understand others. I want to do not limited by a small nation's view. Only Christ Jesus is my view, standard, and my eyes.

I am very sorry to see that someone holds fast only one view what is even not truth, sometimes. I hope him(or her) to let others live as they are. I thought it but I afraid of to become as well, and I have a question. The question is "how can I understand, accept and hug any stubborn person?". I know the answer but I do not have confidence to do it. I have cried out to God that I can not do this and I am very narrow-minded.

The Lord had let me go to his presence and seek His face and will. I realized that I need Him every moments. I am too weak to reveal His Glory in me without His sustaining even though I have been crucified with Christ.
It is, actually, very strange word above. A man who experience the cross is not alone but fulled of Jesus. He is not divided from Jesus but united with Him. It is impossible that I can not do what He do. How long time that I spent to try myself to do something good belong to Jesus was!

Yes, the Lord who lives in me will make everything possible.
The Lord who lives in me will make me to live as He lived.
The Lord who lives in me will let me serve His servants doing not adhere to my old world-view.
I have to see again through God's eyes, everyday!!