The Lord’s class in Rota

I had never known that we would spend three weeks in Rota, but now I am sorry for we have to go back to Saipan already. Could I write everything so precious that God gave me in Rota?

God has shown a witness of prayer and faith to me.

Let me tell two big things. First, loving and trusting others in Christ. Second, the life of faith what is depended on the Lord by prayer. I really appreciate God for leading me trust Pastor and open my heart to him. But devil attacked us 3 team members with a problem. The problem was a trouble to confirm our flight tickets delayed. In this situation we have faced, Pastor did never be shaken. He smiled and led us to pray together immediately. He told us that God can work more since we are going to stay in Rota one day more. So I have got to admit that it was God's permission. Then, I have made up my mind with prayer to trust God who is in Shalom and Rebekah in any moment. God has prevailed over it. Afterhand, the Lord changed the relationship of us 4 to be one for about a week. Hallelujah!

Pastor, a sample of the life of prayer and faith, was the witness whom God has shown to me. Actually, it was the first time to meet such a witness of prayer like him. The Lord has made my heart soften and let me know the fact that I am so weak to live by faith, through him. And the Lord has taught me how to step in faith for tiny parts of my life in detail and has poured His warm love to me everyday.

"Why have I sinned by failing to pray?" I have asked myself, but I have not had any hard time with that question. The prayer was being soaked by my life like pastor, living with him. The Lord has let me know the fact that everything is His deed and everyone is a soul who is more precious than heaven and earth to one who prays. So do I, now. I want to commend every single tiny thing to the Lord, and I do it. I am being replied all the time. My life is not mine, but His. Hallelujah!

My strength is prayer, the love of God and pleasure of my soul.

When I was in trouble at first of this out-reach with new conditions and fear of speaking English, I could know that I need to pray. I was able to know that I need to give my whole heart to the Lord. (Of course, I did not think about myself, "Why am I doing this?". Since the hard time should be to adjust. ) I have recognized how much grace I have been wrapped by feeling God's love. I appreciated God for that He let me pray and let my soul revive.

The Lord gives me a victory but Satan does not stop to attack me. I have a weakness that being concentrated to a 'person'. It is a dangerous weakness that can hide the Lord behind the person from me. I have loved pastor too much to wear in Shalom and Becky's shoes. I have been jealous them sometimes. But the Lord has let me repent my crooked heart and even though there are so many wrongs in the reacts of our team members, He has let me not have any problem for that in love through prayer for them. God has done.

I have been tired many times, but pastor's precious sharing has made my soul rejoice even though it was long. The length of sharing was not a matter. The rejoicing has swallowed every tired thing so that I could keep rejoicing. I wanted to have the time we can get together in Rota more. I praise The Lord who gave me a happy time.

The Kingdom of God had been coming to this small island.

There were society and lives of the people of Rota. There were T and S's sincere faithfulness, devotion and prayer of tears. Hallelujah! We have met T's friends who are related with T for nine years, and have shared our testimony. We prayed for them with T.

When I look at them with the mind of God, I was almost Rota missionary. It was really amazing that they are growing in Christ little by little. T let us know details that he is praying and sharing Jesus to them. The heart of God was letting him love, have every single soul in his heart, and bring them to God in prayer. Then, the saving passion started to burn in me.

There is an obvious truth, and the day of the Lord's judgment is getting closer now. How can we lead them to the Lord? It was a huge shock, touching my heart and joy to see T who lead them without giving up but with patience, wisdom and faith. I have learned the foundation of missionary as a new missionary. I appreciated for S who is being with T in the bold faith in God who has called them even it is hard to her. Rota Island needs them very much. I am praying for the kingdom of God in sister S.

Wherever I would go, I will trust the Lord who is in every missionaries as well as I have done to pastor T. God is already leading me live to serve the Nations. I will worship the Lord through all my life. T is a prayer and a faithful servant who live along the Bible in the truth in everywhere. I am sure that the Lord will live His life in me and will do His will as well as in pastor T.

English, what is just a kind of language, is nothing. Because it has been just a tool that I can use as I share my heart, listen, get together and love in Rota. Speaking English became more natural to me because I have shared with them in love.

This language is just a tool for unity and accomplishing Father's will. And, English is fun. I have got to know the fact that English is not for me but for those who can communicate with me in only English, so that I need to learn the way of speaking used by them usually and to learn the pronunciation clean to hear. I appreciate God. Learning a language is not learning just a language simply but learning American culture for speaking English. For that, I need to learn it humbly by only faith. I have to have the faith of a little child, for everything.

I believe that God will use my English in amazing way. Praise the Lord!!

In His Perfect Hands, 3rd week

Unlikely two weeks that have passed, this week was not long. For last second week of August, the truth that I have to catch was getting clean with blogging. Blogging is not just one of things to do, but a diary, a reflection, a recording the Lord's grace and a helper that helps me to make my mind firm. It helped me to walk into the belief forward God's working on last Sunday. On Monday, I went into the 1^st grade's classroom with praying.

Lovely students have become lover of us, Joses and me. Now, they greet us every morning, "Good morning, Mr. Joses~!" Of course, we know that they want to get the praise from their homeroom teacher by greeting us loudly. But we love it very much. I have adjusted to move along their time table. We have the PE time 3 times on a week. They need to wear the PE uniform from morning if they have PE time.

Especially, in this week I started to attend to the prayer meeting with G church. On last Sunday sermon, Pastor R said, "If you believe that this island needs nothing but prayer, come to the prayer meeting at TUE, WED, THR and SAT morning." I remember that he mentioned about this prayer meeting when we met in the china house before. (Even though I did not understand what he means.) He must have been planned this prayer meeting at the beginning of this semester. So we (WSA) decided to attend this meeting. The first day that I attend to it at 6 o'clock in G sanctuary, God reminded me the vine and branch in John 15:5.

Disappointment in myself is the great blessing from God. Since this blessing leads me to know how great God's grace for me is. It lets me think about the faith that has to be on His greatness calmly. I appreciate God for He has put me lower and made me humble.

I do not feel tired in most cases usually. I have a pleasure about English always. Especially, I like English. But these two weeks lately were different very much. I was very exhausted. Unconditional unity and serving were not easy as well as saying it. It needed to unite more with teacher because of beginning of a semester. So, even though it looks like that we are helping the teachers, actually it is an adventure for teachers. Over these two weeks I have needed to go to sleep as soon as back home. I have expected that I can be with the teacher all day long helping and share many things involving my gospel, yet sometimes she wanted us leave for our home early after school. We could not talk about our faith in God even my gospel. I had been finding some opportunity that I can share the gospel to kids but their school schedule was so tight.

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5

The fear, disturbance and impatience were still in my heart as I pray in the Tuesday morning. But God reminded me this verse. God's work is not accomplished by human's great ability or talent, but by only the Lord's way and power. We can see it in His time. It requires a lot of patience, faith and sincerity to me. So I should just be still, do what is commanded by God. I do not need to do a huge and awesome job for His work, for I am nothing but a branch.

I have awarded that I have had hard time in G for two weeks since I have tried to help them with my own wisdom, characteristic and an even temper. I thought I can do this in August without any big difficulty. But I need to get up because of the Lord's power every morning. For the Lord's power, I can attend to the prayer meeting with English speakers even though I could make them bored by my long, slow and stammering prayer. For the Lord's power, I can get in the classroom. For the Lord's power, I can jump in anything unexpected no matter what not by faith in myself, but by the faith in only God.

Then, I have started to be vibrant. If they do need me, I move, unless, I do not move. As the Israel in the desert, I move when God says, unless I do not move. God wants His servant who is quick at nothing but His voice. Being still for the Lord's voice is not being loose. It is being prepared by Him.

I could be free to do anything that God gives me in the classroom on the belief that I am filling with His power, fully. I am glad to know God who let me live as well as I have His precious life in me not only in classroom, but in everywhere I will be faithful in my rest lifetime. Praise the Lord!

Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Psalms 126:5

The Second Week in Christ

The second week has been started. I could not think what would happen tomorrow. The partner, teacher, schedule and class are still not changed, but every day I face a new day. Yet God led me to be prepared to expect newer God in G through weekend.

Many difficulties were waiting for me in the relationship with the first grades. A boy said that he can get everything by money. A few days later, he said that he would give me two pennies if I help him to know the answers for spelling test. He is just ‘six years old’. I was angry very much as I faced his value, but it was telling me how much they need our prayer.

Teacher asks us help for class time only, and we eat lunch with students. We could not have enough time to have a good fellowship with the teacher, but she seems to know our purpose. She is the oldest teacher in G and had taught the kinder garden 5 for a long time. I like to see her share about her calling to her student. The students are only 6 years ole, but they can understand the important things. One day, she said that we want to follow God by helping them to the students. I was so pleased to learn that my heart could be known to her even we do not talk each other a lot.

One thing what gave me a heavy heart was that I cannot make sure what is happening in the heart of everyone in class. I am just started to understand their emotions, behaviors, rules and lives. Teacher says “Thank you!” to us when the class over every day but sometimes I could not know whether we are helping properly or not.

God has helped me to believe Him as the one who can everything that He wants to do. Even though I cannot know the details, He is working in the classroom. I have obeyed as much as He let me recognize. Some way more batter can be there to help them. I could not know what it is. But I appreciate God to lead me to know how to help this much.

I expect that I would be more vibrant winning against the tiredness. I want to help them with perfect love and prayer. I step along God’s new time table in the school everyday without fear.

I expect that God would be glorious among us

It was second time to give jamboree but I was nervous. I wondered that I did my duty completely on last Saturday. There was a heavy heart that I must not miss witnessing the gospel before everyone in my heart. Because I thought that there is lack of saying message of God, yet God let me know witnessing for Him is just little obedience, today.

It could be hard to MS.HT this week because she is discipline teacher of elementary school alone. She was sick, so miss. L, Grace and I three went to the Aqua Resort. It was two children’s birthday.

Preparing the jamboree was not so hard to carry stuff into the party hall like last time, for some people helped us. The jamboree was started after eating. The children’s mother and sister led this party including the Coconut Jamboree with microphone in front of the hall. Their father was the worship leader of a church, so most of the invited were Philippines of the G members. There were children more than last time.

It was very sunny and hot day, yet we were in cool hall. Nevertheless, we were very busy and tired. We have played the puppets 5-6 times and have painted face painting during the people in this party enjoying many games. The simple fact that they have had a lot of fun made me happy. I have tried drawing face painting as a first time. I was supposed to share about Jesus to the children, yet I could share just one of two things since I had to concentrate to draw carefully. Most of them were Sunday school students, but I wanted to pray for them. It was almost a Sunday school. :)

I was sad little bit since the party was very very luxury. I surprised to learn they spend lots of money for even one-year-old baby’s birthday party. Christians have to spend their money for really important thing, the kingdom of God.

God lets me be in their community and leads me to know them little by little with joining this jamboree. I am happy to know that God is working through our obeying even though we cannot make sure everything because of language and culture. Father, be glorious among every community in Saipan also!

A Blessing has came to me in love

A semester has started. The first grade students needed to adjust at so many things because they just came from kinder garden. Joses and I, two Koreans came in the classroom with discipline teacher at the first day, were one of new things that the students faced.

We could not catch what we should help in the classroom on first day, but God has led us to know what we should do. Even though the homeroom teacher had misunderstood us as the helper for part time, when we let her know that we were supposed to be in the classroom following her schedule she appreciated us very much and we did, too. And she gave us very good opportunity in her class. We guided some students who do not understand what the class is learning. One of them could not write in English what he heard. Another one was not be able to add.

I have been with girls when they go to the restroom, have checked their math sheets, and have eaten with them in lunchtime. They are so lovely!!!

But I have had a hard time, too. Teaching math in English was not easy even it was very simple adding. Something harder than it was that some boys had not admitted Joses and I as another teacher. They had ignored me and obeyed to only their homeroom teacher. It is very natural but if you have not been the sub teacher in a classroom, you could not understand what I felt. I did not know how to teach them having respect for everyone in the school yet I have prayed for that I can stand their teasing. They started to admit me as their helper after three days.

I am learning with first grade. I had to practice the national anthems of CNMI and USA because they sing it in every morning. I am also memorizing merrily the mission statement.

The cute students are in my prayer. There is a problem boy in our class. No one can stop him. He does not fear anybody. I sensed that he has many hurts in his heart from his family for he is just six years old. But I am asking wisdom to God for that I can lead him without wound.

I really appreciate God for moving teachers’ heart and open us their classrooms and many parts of assembly. We are in a great blessing not for our circumstance, but for His guiding us to be in everywhere by faith in God.
I will obey to God when He wants me to have faith founded on Him in many circumstances.

Eunice' the first assisting day

It was raining hard in the morning, but the C. Jamboree was never canceled. Everything was new to Grace and me. I did not know what I should help and what would happen in the Jamboree. So I appreciated God because I must step at everything by faith.
From Joseph dropped us, the marching of faith started. Some people in the school teacher’s lounge guided us very kindly, everyone we met were angels of God.

I was not able to give great help, since I have never played something makes children happy like a puppet show. I have just carried much stuff we need and helped them with small things. I just cleaned up the stuff for sand from beach. But the one thing made me glad is that God led us to assist church and Christian school in Christ’s love. I thought I have not been prepared but God has prepared everything perfectly. I don’t have to worry or be afraid of anything.

We enjoyed the Jamboree in the birthday party of five-year-old girl at the Aquarius Beach. The birthday princess’ parents were rich. Some people were cooking barbecue from this morning, all tables were wrapped with pretty patterned table sheets and there was a 3-floor-cake with all of Disney princesses on it. Her parents give her a birthday party like this yearly. We played four puppets along the chorus or made some balloons toys.

I was surprised to learn that it needs so much stuff and that just a pretty young teacher was serving these all activity mainly playing a clown. She was very busy herself. (of course others helped her, today.) I was very happy to see her and her school reach out to the people need the Gospel though there was no preaching. They do not require a lot of money for payment but wants only to share delight, grace and good news with them.

God opened the parents’ hearts today. During some games were going, many parents have enjoyed them. This serving of the school were impressed them. The mother of the birthday girl was very appreciated us. I pray for that God sows her soften heart with seeds of Gospel of truth. I pray for her daughter would come to see the Lord who does marvelous things upon her life.

The Lord has taken away my fear far and gave me a heart that wants to serve people of God with anything much more. WMM’s motto, uniting and serving are not done by only working hard, yet God achieves His work through us work hard. As we are working with the heart of God, He works through our prayers that pray for His will to be done. I love this 2nd semester!



There is no fear in LOVE. But perfect LOVE drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in LOVE. – 1 John 4:18