In His Perfect Hands, 3rd week

Unlikely two weeks that have passed, this week was not long. For last second week of August, the truth that I have to catch was getting clean with blogging. Blogging is not just one of things to do, but a diary, a reflection, a recording the Lord's grace and a helper that helps me to make my mind firm. It helped me to walk into the belief forward God's working on last Sunday. On Monday, I went into the 1^st grade's classroom with praying.

Lovely students have become lover of us, Joses and me. Now, they greet us every morning, "Good morning, Mr. Joses~!" Of course, we know that they want to get the praise from their homeroom teacher by greeting us loudly. But we love it very much. I have adjusted to move along their time table. We have the PE time 3 times on a week. They need to wear the PE uniform from morning if they have PE time.

Especially, in this week I started to attend to the prayer meeting with G church. On last Sunday sermon, Pastor R said, "If you believe that this island needs nothing but prayer, come to the prayer meeting at TUE, WED, THR and SAT morning." I remember that he mentioned about this prayer meeting when we met in the china house before. (Even though I did not understand what he means.) He must have been planned this prayer meeting at the beginning of this semester. So we (WSA) decided to attend this meeting. The first day that I attend to it at 6 o'clock in G sanctuary, God reminded me the vine and branch in John 15:5.

Disappointment in myself is the great blessing from God. Since this blessing leads me to know how great God's grace for me is. It lets me think about the faith that has to be on His greatness calmly. I appreciate God for He has put me lower and made me humble.

I do not feel tired in most cases usually. I have a pleasure about English always. Especially, I like English. But these two weeks lately were different very much. I was very exhausted. Unconditional unity and serving were not easy as well as saying it. It needed to unite more with teacher because of beginning of a semester. So, even though it looks like that we are helping the teachers, actually it is an adventure for teachers. Over these two weeks I have needed to go to sleep as soon as back home. I have expected that I can be with the teacher all day long helping and share many things involving my gospel, yet sometimes she wanted us leave for our home early after school. We could not talk about our faith in God even my gospel. I had been finding some opportunity that I can share the gospel to kids but their school schedule was so tight.

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5

The fear, disturbance and impatience were still in my heart as I pray in the Tuesday morning. But God reminded me this verse. God's work is not accomplished by human's great ability or talent, but by only the Lord's way and power. We can see it in His time. It requires a lot of patience, faith and sincerity to me. So I should just be still, do what is commanded by God. I do not need to do a huge and awesome job for His work, for I am nothing but a branch.

I have awarded that I have had hard time in G for two weeks since I have tried to help them with my own wisdom, characteristic and an even temper. I thought I can do this in August without any big difficulty. But I need to get up because of the Lord's power every morning. For the Lord's power, I can attend to the prayer meeting with English speakers even though I could make them bored by my long, slow and stammering prayer. For the Lord's power, I can get in the classroom. For the Lord's power, I can jump in anything unexpected no matter what not by faith in myself, but by the faith in only God.

Then, I have started to be vibrant. If they do need me, I move, unless, I do not move. As the Israel in the desert, I move when God says, unless I do not move. God wants His servant who is quick at nothing but His voice. Being still for the Lord's voice is not being loose. It is being prepared by Him.

I could be free to do anything that God gives me in the classroom on the belief that I am filling with His power, fully. I am glad to know God who let me live as well as I have His precious life in me not only in classroom, but in everywhere I will be faithful in my rest lifetime. Praise the Lord!

Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Psalms 126:5