I had never known that we would spend three weeks in Rota, but now I am sorry for we have to go back to Saipan already. Could I write everything so precious that God gave me in Rota?
God has shown a witness of prayer and faith to me.
Let me tell two big things. First, loving and trusting others in Christ. Second, the life of faith what is depended on the Lord by prayer. I really appreciate God for leading me trust Pastor and open my heart to him. But devil attacked us 3 team members with a problem. The problem was a trouble to confirm our flight tickets delayed. In this situation we have faced, Pastor did never be shaken. He smiled and led us to pray together immediately. He told us that God can work more since we are going to stay in Rota one day more. So I have got to admit that it was God's permission. Then, I have made up my mind with prayer to trust God who is in Shalom and Rebekah in any moment. God has prevailed over it. Afterhand, the Lord changed the relationship of us 4 to be one for about a week. Hallelujah!
Pastor, a sample of the life of prayer and faith, was the witness whom God has shown to me. Actually, it was the first time to meet such a witness of prayer like him. The Lord has made my heart soften and let me know the fact that I am so weak to live by faith, through him. And the Lord has taught me how to step in faith for tiny parts of my life in detail and has poured His warm love to me everyday.
"Why have I sinned by failing to pray?" I have asked myself, but I have not had any hard time with that question. The prayer was being soaked by my life like pastor, living with him. The Lord has let me know the fact that everything is His deed and everyone is a soul who is more precious than heaven and earth to one who prays. So do I, now. I want to commend every single tiny thing to the Lord, and I do it. I am being replied all the time. My life is not mine, but His. Hallelujah!
My strength is prayer, the love of God and pleasure of my soul.
When I was in trouble at first of this out-reach with new conditions and fear of speaking English, I could know that I need to pray. I was able to know that I need to give my whole heart to the Lord. (Of course, I did not think about myself, "Why am I doing this?". Since the hard time should be to adjust. ) I have recognized how much grace I have been wrapped by feeling God's love. I appreciated God for that He let me pray and let my soul revive.
The Lord gives me a victory but Satan does not stop to attack me. I have a weakness that being concentrated to a 'person'. It is a dangerous weakness that can hide the Lord behind the person from me. I have loved pastor too much to wear in Shalom and Becky's shoes. I have been jealous them sometimes. But the Lord has let me repent my crooked heart and even though there are so many wrongs in the reacts of our team members, He has let me not have any problem for that in love through prayer for them. God has done.
I have been tired many times, but pastor's precious sharing has made my soul rejoice even though it was long. The length of sharing was not a matter. The rejoicing has swallowed every tired thing so that I could keep rejoicing. I wanted to have the time we can get together in Rota more. I praise The Lord who gave me a happy time.
The Kingdom of God had been coming to this small island.
There were society and lives of the people of Rota. There were T and S's sincere faithfulness, devotion and prayer of tears. Hallelujah! We have met T's friends who are related with T for nine years, and have shared our testimony. We prayed for them with T.
When I look at them with the mind of God, I was almost Rota missionary. It was really amazing that they are growing in Christ little by little. T let us know details that he is praying and sharing Jesus to them. The heart of God was letting him love, have every single soul in his heart, and bring them to God in prayer. Then, the saving passion started to burn in me.
There is an obvious truth, and the day of the Lord's judgment is getting closer now. How can we lead them to the Lord? It was a huge shock, touching my heart and joy to see T who lead them without giving up but with patience, wisdom and faith. I have learned the foundation of missionary as a new missionary. I appreciated for S who is being with T in the bold faith in God who has called them even it is hard to her. Rota Island needs them very much. I am praying for the kingdom of God in sister S.
Wherever I would go, I will trust the Lord who is in every missionaries as well as I have done to pastor T. God is already leading me live to serve the Nations. I will worship the Lord through all my life. T is a prayer and a faithful servant who live along the Bible in the truth in everywhere. I am sure that the Lord will live His life in me and will do His will as well as in pastor T.
English, what is just a kind of language, is nothing. Because it has been just a tool that I can use as I share my heart, listen, get together and love in Rota. Speaking English became more natural to me because I have shared with them in love.
This language is just a tool for unity and accomplishing Father's will. And, English is fun. I have got to know the fact that English is not for me but for those who can communicate with me in only English, so that I need to learn the way of speaking used by them usually and to learn the pronunciation clean to hear. I appreciate God. Learning a language is not learning just a language simply but learning American culture for speaking English. For that, I need to learn it humbly by only faith. I have to have the faith of a little child, for everything.
I believe that God will use my English in amazing way. Praise the Lord!!
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